Monday, January 30, 2017

bebé dos:: thirty-four weeks

How far along: 34 weeks!
Total weight gain: +a billion. Super nervous about OB appointment weigh-in.
Baby Size: ?
Stretch marks: None, thank God!
Clothes: Green sateen chinos. Leggings. My aqua non-maternity v-neck. Drew's J Crew half-zip sweater. Lilly Skipper popover. Nightgown and sleep shirt. Navy stripey maternity top and gray maternity top. Lot of open vests. Black & cream striped maternity dress to Mary Lucy's funeral.
Sleep: All the naps. Slept in several mornings when Lilly was at Grandma's; still need naps.
Cravings: Shaved ice. Chocolate cake. Carb-smart vanilla ice cream.
Symptoms: Mom says she looks like she's dropped. Joint and groin pain, ribcage pain. Fatigue. Major back pain. 
Diabetes Management: Same dosage. Not doing excellent - need to send over levels.
Exercise: Some walks.
Mood: Been stressed. Lot going on this week -- wrapping up work meetings, site visits, doc appointments, lots of Lilly staying with Grandma. Must make it to next Sunday!
Miss Anything: Not hurting. Energy. Being tiny. 
Belly Button in or out? In, barely. Not going to make it much longer.
Nesting: Finally oxycleaned baby clothes, folded and sorted laundry. Working on hospital bag packing. I have a teensy bit of extra downtime this week with all the childcare I've got going on, so maybe I can tackle a little more work.
Nursery: Crib is set up with mattress and llama sheets, BF cover is on pillow. Need to tidy up desk.
Best Moment this week: Getting the dining room finished, spending time with Drew.
Thankful for: Drew. Booboo. My parents. Family, support system.
Looking forward to: My massage scheduled for Wednesday night. Sleep, always. Laken having Lucy (when will it be?!?! She's 38 weeks Tuesday!). Meeting Anna Cate. Lilly meeting Anna Cate. Not being pregnant anymore (although it started to hit me last night when "Closing Time" came on the radio at the restaurant we were eating at -- took a LOT for me to not sob at the table). How good and full of love life gets when you have a baby. Trusting life will be incredible with Anna Cate in it!
Doctor Visits:  Two this week -- tomorrow (U/S and OB) and Thursday morning before my marathon planning sessions. Nervous.
Baby Position:  Head down, kicking my ribs and back on the daily.
Movement: Consistent. She was sleeping during my non-stress test on Friday so they buzzed her and she got pissed and rolled off the monitor -- so funny.
Labor Signs: Baby "dropping," according to Mom. Overwhelming desire to wash my windows.
How is Lilly:  The sweetest. She's had an upset stomach for a few days which meant a sleepless Friday night, but she's precious and cuddly and I could hug her and let her sleep in my arms forever. Drop-off was teary again -- wondering when she'll start loving preschool. Hoping it's soon, but she has to skip this week for my KY site visit. She'll be the best big sister. I love that baby so much. She'll always be my baby!!!!

Overall -- I'm uncomfortable. People occasionally have said things like, "You won't make it two more weeks!" / "You look like you're about to pop!" / "You're way bigger than you were with Lilly!" but all I can think is -- it doesn't work like that (as in, you don't just get so big that you literally pop, and I'm pretty sure I did get bigger with Lilly since I made it to 38 weeks with her, and that's *gulp* still a month away from where I am now). MORE people tell me I look great (and more often than the negative nancies' commentary) and are encouraging, especially considering I'm juggling all this with the 'beetus. I'm cross a lot of the time (especially with Drew, God bless him) but trying to fit in little bits of happiness... I bought some gorgeous $6 pink lilies at Trader Joe's on Friday that brighten my life, spending as much time in my beautiful blue rooms we've painted and redone as possible, planned out my massages (I hope they're comfortable!), hope to get a pedicure before JC arrives, and am overall working on things to spark joy. We'll see. I'm trying really hard to give this all up to God and trust His perfect timing because I'm nervous. And technically still due on March 13. Which sounds forever away. I know I won't go that long, but it does sound REALLY far away.

Julianna Cate's Bumpdates
Sixteen Weeks
Eighteen Weeks
Nineteen WeeksTwenty Weeks

Twenty-Four Weeks
Twenty-Five Weeks
Twenty-Six Weeks
Twenty-Seven Weeks
Twenty-Eight Weeks
Twenty-Nine Weeks
Thirty Weeks
Thirty-One Weeks
Thirty-Two Weeks
Thirty-Three Weeks

Things Left to Do:
Buy diapers
Get our car back, return Mom's 4-Runner
Get car detailed
Install infant carseat
Stock up on pads & nursing pads
Make freezer meals (Drew)
Prepare taxes
Get 2 massages (Feb. 1 & Feb 18)
Make it through this week's wedding meetings
Wrap up clients' wedding details for the most part
Prepare to hand things over to VA for the month of March
Organize boxes of baby clothes
Clean off desk in office
Fully pack hospital bag
Monogram girls' pajamas
Officially book newborn photography
Get hair cut & colored (Feb. 21)
Go to one last prenatal yoga class

Monday, January 23, 2017

bebé dos:: thirty-three weeks

How far along: 33 weeks!

Total weight gain: +25 according to my doctor, but that must be from a reeeeeeally low point of my first trimester. I'm still thinking +20-22.
Clothes: Gray long sleeve tee, black lounge pants, Lilly luxletic leggings, Lularoe leggings, green maternity pants, Lilly puffers and hot pink shirt dress. Can't find my black leggings, so that's really cramping my comfort-style. Also, been wearing my walmart athletic shorts with built-in underwear often, too!
Sleep: Gimme all of it. I get tired doing ANYTHING -- I need a nap daily. Even if it's short.
Cravings: Shaved ice. Cereal with milk and cut up apples. Apple & sunflower seed butter. Cake.
Symptoms: EVERYTHING HURTS AND I AM DYING. Everything is pulling, straining, aching. Major joint and groin pain, ribcage pain. Fatigue. Braxton Hicks & legit contractions. Back pain. 
Diabetes Management: Same dosage. Not doing excellent - need to send over levels.
Exercise: Hahahahahaha. I stretched a little this week. EVERYTHING HURTS.
Mood: A little anxious / worried today. Not for a particular reason, but everything just feels a little shaky right now. I want to snuggle my baby close and just be here for her. Got some overwhelming work coming up.
Miss Anything: Not hurting. Energy. Motivation. 
Nesting: Ordered a fancy new double stroller I'm really excited about, as well as a cover for My Brest Friend pillow. Drew and his dad installed our new garbage disposal. We finished painting the dining room (for the most part) and Drew installed our new chandelier!!! It looks a trillion times better!!! 
Nursery: I bought the llama sheets. Still haven't ordered new crib mattress. Put pictures in the frames but not necessarily for the nursery.
Best Moment this week: Maybe just spending time with Drew and Lilly this weekend? We holed up at home for the most part and worked on our projects. Lilly is the huggiest!
Thankful for: Drew. Booboo. My parents. Family, support systems. Faith. Home. HVAC. Health. Good medical care.
Looking forward to: Valentine's Day. My massages on Feb 1 & 18. Meeting this baby.
Doctor Visits:  Had two this week - ultrasound (yikes my baby is 5lb5oz!) and OB, then NST Friday. Same thing this upcoming week, only no OB after my U/S.
Baby Position:  Head down, happy to report!
How is Lilly:  Survived Day #2 of school! It was still a weepy drop-off and pickup, but she's doing well. She's so sweet and hugs us tightly right now. She turns 21 months today!!!

Monday, January 16, 2017

bebé dos:: thirty-two weeks

How far along: 32 weeks!

Total weight gain: +20. 22.5 on my home scale; we'll see Tuesday.
Clothes: Frequently wearing my Lilly luxletic leggings, green chinos, Lilly Elsa tops, monochromatic black outfits. Broke out the old maternity jeans from Dani / that I wore with Lilly; they're so much more comfortable than those damn designer jeans I got this time around. (Such a regret!)
Sleep: I need all the sleep there is. All I do is sleep and pee nonstop. Sleep, pee, want to sleep, complain, eat ice, hurt.
Cravings: Shaved ice. Cereal with milk and cut up apples!!!! (I would've killed for that last night. DESPERATE.) 
Symptoms: Nosebleeds, groin pain, faintness, major ribcage pain. Difficulty sleeping. Fatigue. Braxton Hicks & legit contractions. AWFUL foot cramp. Back pain. 
Diabetes Management: Same dosage.
Exercise: Took my first prenatal yoga class of the pregnancy this week! It was really hard and I got the worst charley horse of my life (in my foot) afterwards. It was literally worse than labor.
Mood: So grateful. Insurance resolved, warm weather this week, things are looking up!! 
Miss Anything: The beach. Spring and springtime Savannah trips! 
Nesting: Major cleaning and painting the dining room, courtesy of Drew! He is a rockstar and does so much around the house!
Nursery: May get Anna Cate llama sheets!
Best Moment this week:  When everything got fixed! It was nice having Julianna & Kiggans over too.
Thankful for: Drew times a billion. Family, my parents and their willingness to let us borrow Dad's truck. Drew's family (Dan is over here installing our garbage disposal now!). The squeaky wheel finally getting the grease. Health insurance (I'll never take it for granted!). God's mercy and grace with us. Security and safety. Working cars. Auto insurance. A car that's getting repaired.
Looking forward to: Getting our house more enjoya-livable. Valentine's Day, Easter, springtime, eventually a trip to the beach or Charleston (or both).
Doctor Visits:  Tomorrow starts the 3x/week appointments. Ultrasound & OB Tuesday, non-stress fetal monitoring Friday. Frequenting the hospital.
Baby Position:  ALL UP IN MY RIBCAGE! So uncomfortable. Sleeping is not comfortable at all. My back hurts too.
How is Lilly:  She started school!!!!!! We both cried at drop off but she did PHENOMENALLY. So proud of my big girl!!!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

2016 recap + planning for the new year

2016 is officially complete! What a doozy of a year. It's been good in so many ways and hard in so many ways. So far 2017 has not started off too solid, but I'm trying to hold onto hope as best I can!

Recap of the year passed: January - Saw Tool in concert in the midst of snowpacalypse. 

February - Learned to monogram / use my embroidery machine. Celebrated Valentine's Day with Kat & Chad. Went to Memphis for a bridal shower. Survived horrible stomach virus, missed Rival Sons in concert. Paid final rent for office -- officially moved out! 
March - Got a zoo membership. Went to Savannah with Mom and Lilly. Hosted Easter brunch at our house. Lilly learned to crawl! Booked new client (Carly). Lilly started sleeping through the night with an early bedtime!!
April - Threw a bachelorette party. Finally got my period back after breastfeeding and was able to wear a normal bra again. Lilly turned 1! We celebrated with a Puppy Pawty; I was extremely grateful to have had it photographed. Lilly had an allergic reaction to peanut butter. Successfully managed first wedding of the season, despite weeks afterwards of crisis management when a vendor didn't follow through with a great job. Stressful.
May - First half of the month was wedding crisis managing from April wedding. Went to Birmingham for a friend's wedding. Managed a month-of wedding. Confirmed Lilly's peanut allergy. Went to the pool a lot.
June - Went to a wedding. Was MOH in a wedding in Memphis. Found out best friend is expecting! Went on fun friendcation. Got super tan and knocked up! Lilly learned to walk! Booked new client (Katie).
July - Found out we're expecting! (That was fast.) Went on fun family vacay at Tybee Beach, got even more tan. Celebrated 4th anniversary. Taught hot yoga up until the last of the month. Successful wedding direction. Booked new clients (Allison & Emeline).
August - Turned 27. Spent a lot of this month super nauseous. First ultrasound of this pregnancy. Set up home office upstairs. Drew turned 28. Took an impromptu trip to Savannah when Drew was working out of town. Drew worked out of town a lot. Managed a wedding, lots of wedding planning appointments. Started weaning Lilly. Found out we're having another girl!
September - Gender reveal party. Went to a wedding, worked a wedding. Announced our pregnancy. Had several houseguests. Drew worked out of town a lot. Threw a bridal shower. Finally stopped breastfeeding. Dad had a birthday and retired.
October - Hosted a bachelorette party. Drew worked out of town a lot. Spent week with Dani & kids at Mom's house. Was MOH in a wedding. Bump grew! Celebrated Halloween with neighbor-friends. Booked new client (Bridget).
November - Healthy anatomy scan & ultrasound for baby Julianna Cate. Election from hell. Drew got a new job! Spent Thanksgiving week in Savannah. Got new iPhones after mine took a trip through the washing machine and dove into the toilet in Charleston. Drew started his new job at the tail end of the month. Booked new clients (Victoria & Ellen).
December - Slightly scary ultrasound results - tested for cystic fibrosis (came back negative). Did all the Christmas things. Celebrated Jackson's 1st birthday, went to the Nashville parade, went to Dickens of a Christmas, Lilly met Santa twice and hated him both times. Decided last minute to spend Christmas in Savannah for the weekend. Lots of wedding preparations for NYE wedding + next year's clients. Planned for Lilly to start preschool in January. Attended two funerals (Denny & Jewell). Painted, furnished, and decorated nursery to 85% completion. Second ultrasound of month was good but I'll be induced in February. (WHAT?!) 

In the foreseeable future for 2017...

- Mom retires!
- Lilly starts "playschool" one day a week 
- Hopefully several prenatal massages -- I have the gift cards!!!!!! (One down, two scheduled!)
- A million doctors' appointments in January + February
- A million wedding appointments in January + February
- A whirlwind couple of days in wedding appointments at the beginning of February, plus NWPG retreat. 
- Birth of Julianna Cate Dellinger {February?!}
- Maternity leave {I can't take off three months like I did with Lilly. Planning to not take on in-person meetings the last half of February / all of March, and take on a Virtual Assistant for the month of March!}
- Birth of friends' babies:  Laken's daughter Lucy in Feb, Caitlyn's baby in May, Grace's baby in April, Amanda's daughter Zoey in April...
- Celebrate Lilly's 2nd birthday! She's turning two-two!
- Host Sip & See for AnnaCate
- At least 6-8+ weddings {Katie in May - full planning, Carly in June - full planning, Victoria in June - event management, Emeline in August - full planning, Bridget in October - partial planning, Ellen in October - unlimited planning, Rachel in November - event management}
- 5th wedding anniversary!
- 28th birthday / 29th for Drew
- Celebrating 10 years of being with Drew

What would I like to cultivate in 2017? Balance. Beauty. Peace. Joy. SLEEP. Splitting my time and attention is not going to be an option - it's a necessity. I'll have to figure out how to be a great mom to TWO little ones. AND a great wife to Drew. I'll be re-immersed in the world of breastfeeding all the time. I'll have to handle sleepless nights and mood swings and more limited time. We'll have to embrace some routine to have some semblance of sanity. I'll have to rely on family to help out when I simply can't do it all. 

Seasons are a-changin'! There's much to be said and done and fixed and planned for and more. Lord, be with us every step of the way.

Monday, January 9, 2017

before the baby comes

Now that I'm thirty weeks and counting, we have less than two months to get everything underway / organized / ready. YIKES-ola! I am way nervous just thinking about everything, but how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.

{aren't these literally the CUTEST?!}
Here's my running baby to-do list!

Pre-register for hospital birth
Purchase a few small gifts for Lilly "from the baby"
Pack hospital bag
Finish preparing the nursery
Make canopy cornice
Sew door muff
Monogram infant pajamas
Monogram swaddles and fluffy blanket
Install infant car seat in Escape
Plan a couple date nights
Prepare work for maternity leave transition (set up Calendly, debrief VA)
Schedule hair cut & color appointment
Get a gel manicure & pedicure
Schedule 3 prenatal massages (First up - next Monday night at 8pm! YAY!)
Wash & pull out all newborn clothes, organize
Wash & pull out all newborn gear, organize
Wash & sterilize all pump parts
Stock up on essentials:  nursing pads, snacks, newborn diapers, wipes
Stock up on household essentials:  toilet paper, shampoo/conditioner, soap, dish soap & detergent, hand soap, paper towels, ziplocs, air filters
Prepare freezer meals
Prepare 2016 taxes
Plan birth announcements

bebe dos:: thirty-one weeks

How far along: 31 weeks!

Total weight gain: +20-something from pre-preg?
Clothes: Elsa top & green sateen pants. A lot of monochromatic black (leggings & long tee), black glossy Hunters. 
Sleep: I need all the sleep there is.
Cravings: Shaved ice.
Symptoms: Nosebleeds, groin pain, faintness, major ribcage pain. Difficulty sleeping. Fatigue. Braxton Hicks & legit contractions.
Diabetes Management: Keeping in line with current dosages. They seem to be working, except for maybe dinner. Got upped one unit for fasting.
Exercise: Majorly minimal. I'm pitiful.
Mood: Throwing my hands up -- everything is kind of hard and not going seamlessly my way lately. Jesus, take the wheel!!!!!! I'm sad and disheartened and a little hopeless and worn down. Hungry.
Miss Anything: Health insurance. Mexico. Really good champagne.
Nesting: I've kind of coasted here lately, but we have projects underway. Drew's made major progress on the garage organization. I need to scour and deep clean the whole house but there aren't enough hours in the day.
Nursery: Ordered blush tulle for the canopy / crib skirt this week. Looked at some PRECIOUS felted lamb accessories from PBK. Her nursery doesn't have a theme in the slightest, but now it's kind of Charleston - sheep - coastal - Lilly Pulitzer - soft pastels.
Best Moment this week:  Well, mom retired this week... so maybe that? Yay Mom!
Thankful for: Supportive family nearby. Not having to leave my house on the snow day. Technology that allows me to call in / FaceTime in to meetings. Heat. Marriage. Drew - my cooking, cleaning, organizing expert husband. My beautiful combination nursery-office. Faith. Knowing that everything WILL be okay -- I have Drew, I have family, I have my Lilly baby, I have this baby inside me. We may go broke, we may not have insurance, but we have each other.
Looking forward to: Some positive news? PLEASE?
Doctor Visits:  Next Friday is my next OB appointment. We are in a predicament because the state denied me and Lilly health insurance coverage (AHHHHH!), so praying to the dear Lord that we can get that resolved before my appointment.
Baby Position:  All over, and starting to run out of room. Her flips and somersaults get really uncomfortable sometimes.
How is Lilly:  She was supposed to start playschool this week, but got snowed out of her first day! Otherwise she's a little rough with me physically lately - pinching, gnawing on my knee (what's that about?), clawing at me. It's not intentional but still effing hurts.

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

bebe dos:: thirty weeks!

How far along: 30 weeks! How did we get here?
Total weight gain: +20ish
Clothes: Leggings, black solid long sleeve tee, navy stripe tee with green sateen pants, comfy socks, hunter boots, bodycon dress (to Wedertz wedding), Lularoe leggings, Lilly luxletic crops, neon coral puffer
Sleep: Need a lot. Going to bed around 10, wake around 7. Took a glorious nap to recoup yesterday after Saturday's wedding.
Cravings: Shaved ice. Loved every second of eating my NYE grits.
Symptoms: Nosebleeds, bump, major groin / ligament pain, lot of Braxton Hicks, little back pain, difficulty sleeping.
Diabetes Management: Up again on dosage - 2u with breakfast, 6u with lunch, 8u with dinner, 16u overnight.
Exercise: Minimal. Need to do barre, yoga, walk.
Mood: Grateful my last pre-baby wedding is complete. Ready for a peaceful year.
Miss Anything: Wine.
Nesting: Still relatively full force.
Nursery: Thus far - painted, rug in place, crib assembled, frames bought, lamp and nightlight in place, new desk & chair set up for my workspace, curtains rehung, glider & ottoman moved in, new bow closet knobs installed. Need mattress, bedding, cornice & canopy, prints/artwork.
Best Moment this week:  New Year's Day! Wedding complete, help with Lilly by family, 
Thankful for: Safety despite car accident Friday morning, NYE wedding went off successfully without a hitch (and is OVER! HELLO MATERNITY LEAVE!), family that helps out all the time...
Looking forward to: 2017! So much to do, so much to plan for, so much transition and newness... praying for relief of anxiety, for Lilly to thrive in her new play school environment (on Fridays!), for direction and safety for this baby's delivery, for successful breastfeeding relationship, for balance and priorities and love.
Doctor Visits:  Next Friday is our next one. I think it's the 13th? Then every week, biweekly appointments!
Baby Position:  Alllll over.
How is Lilly:  Talkative, adorable. I'm nervous about thrusting her into a daycare-type situation, but she will do well and it's just another transition. She says she's ready!