Wednesday, April 26, 2017

toning it up + postpartum bod, the second time around

Howdy! I know it's been a while -- I always seem to start posts and never finish them (but I read a ton!). I've been slightly drowning, slightly keeping my head above water trying to balance momming two, wifing one, owning and running a business, answering mail, planning a newborn sip & see and then a second birthday party, managing a household, and trying not to destroy the house every time we make headway with cleaning it.

One thing that's been majorly on my mind recently is my physical health.  I was seriously ill the last few months of pregnancy, which meant I was perpetually tired and looking back, really thin (while I definitely didn't weigh less, I had a 9.5lb baby and a huge placenta in there, and you can see in my face/arms that I was drained of any nutrition). It's honestly hard for me to gauge what I actually look like / how my body is at any given point of time until time has passed and I can look back in photos. (Is that super weird?) It's kind of like I have body dysmorphia on a micro level. Maybe just distorted awareness?

Regardless -- I was really ill and highly medicated in pregnancy, then I had the baby and got a lot better, but had to re-adjust to eating with non-pregnant T1D. Every time I have a baby, my diabetes gets worse (my pancreas just takes a beating), so although I WAS diabetic after Lilly I didn't have to be medicated for it yet, and this time I'm still definitely diabetic (and a little more so than before), so I DO have to be medicated.

The first few weeks of post-baby life were spent eating ALL THE THINGS, because I could finally eat and also I was producing beaucoups of milk for baby (and have an oversupply in the beginning, so much to compensate for). So I would bake a batch of lactation cookies and eat the whole thing by day 3. I had several milkshakes (they were damn good), several slices of carrot cake, a billion batches of pumpkin oatmeal muffins, and basically all the carbs (with some healthy fats and a lot of protein too). Now that my milk supply has evened out to just produce enough for AnnaCate, I've tried to take a step back from "I MUST HAVE ALL THE THINGS!" when eating and approach my diet from a healthy standpoint (admittedly means the all-day chomping on dark chocolate and going through a Pound Plus dark chocolate bar from Trader Joe's every week is not the best call for me)... especially since my blood sugar levels have been creeping higher and higher and higher as I eat like this. (No shock there!)

Not to mention, my lack of exercise (from lack of energy) has taken a toll on my strength / physical ability / muscle tone. I never really got strong after Lilly (I did get toned and skinny, but I wasn't as flexible or agile as I was in the height of my consistent yoga practicing days). I want to feel confident and beautiful in a swimsuit, as well as physically capable and healthy, energetic and vibrant. 

Before baby, my stomach was always a place that I rarely held much fat and tended to show muscle tone quickly. Obviously pregnancy will do a number on abs -- but fortunately my skin has enough collagen that it bounced back pretty darn well after Lilly. I've had to work much harder at getting it closer to "normal" this time, fearing I had serious diastasis recti this go-around, but my doctor confirmed my lower abdominal pooch is just some leftover fat and skin that I have to do ab exercises to get rid of. (Whew!)

My goals are to strengthen my body, find energy again, eat a clean diet that helps me control my diabetes as best as possible (with as minimal medication as I can manage), and work on toning up my body overall. My arms, back, booty, legs, and abs can all do to have some firming / muscle tone and strength brought back (or brought, period, in some instances -- I've always neglected my back and my legs are a challenging area for toning).

My plan right now is to eliminate refined sugar from my diet (I was eating way too much!), cut drinking alcohol down significantly (such a bad habit to have a couple glasses of wine most nights during the week!), temporarily cut out gluten and most dairy, and focus on eating good, wholesome foods (mostly plants!) to figure out what works sustainably for me (ummm.. I'm not giving up dark chocolate forever!). I also am trying to do the Tone It Up Bikini Series exercise plan but honestly it's a struggle for me right now, since I'm still sleeping in so late in the morning and I accidentally smacked Lilly in the head with a dumbbell when I tried to work out while she was awake yesterday (horror!!!!! She is okay, though!!!!!). I need that energy to come in so I can get up early and work out, and get a grip on my day!

I would love to have a healthy mentality where delicious plant-based foods are my mainstay diet, with occasional treats that I can thoroughly enjoy. I honestly don't get full satisfaction and JOY out of eating dessert twice a day every day... how can you enjoy something if you get too much of it?! I also don't particularly ENJOY a damn good glass of wine anymore since I drink it so often.
{Sidenote: how precious is my little mini?}

So that's where I'm at! I'll be checking in at the end of May, and again in June before we leave for our weeklong Charleston beach trip -- sooooo excited for that!

Friday, March 24, 2017

five on friday

It's that time! Linking up with ChristinaApril, and Natasha:


Oh my goodness, the forecast for this week makes me SO HAPPY! It is 72 degrees outside right now, and the next 10 days are all in the 70s too! Sunshine and warmth is what the doctor ordered to get me out of this funk and feeling alive again. I'm wearing cutoff jean shorts, a tank top, and a swipe of bronzer; it genuinely impacts my mood.

TWO:: coinciding naptimes

BOTH girls are napping at the same time right now and I am LOVING it. This morning has been a little stressful; I sold a couple of pairs of maternity jeans on eBay (YAY!) and when I went to print the shipping label, I realized my printer's power cord had gotten fried from the electrical surge earlier this week. AGH!!!! All this is to say, I have otherwise utilized nap time for eating solo, putting on my makeup in peace, and now blogging. Hallelujah!

THREE:: it's the weekend!

Well, almost. We don't have any weekend plans, but we'll see our couple-friends tomorrow evening (we have an every-other-weekend standing date) and it looks like beautiful weather. Maybe a trip to the zoo is in order?!

FOUR:: barre

I got a random call earlier this week from my local barre3 studio that they were adding 3 free classes to my account because I haven't been in in a while. This is extremely exciting to me since I've been on a postpartum exercise freeze and will be able to start back up in the next couple of weeks! God tends to put opportunities with this barre studio (my favorite!!) into my life at the perfect time, so we'll see what's in store!!!

FIVE:: self-care

Oh, postpartum self-care... how elusive you are! I've been on virtual home arrest trying to keep the baby from getting sick, so we haven't really left the house since mid-February (besides going to Mom & Dad's, or the occasional doctor's appointment, etc). We're now reaching the point where AnnaCate can go out and it's less terrifying. But in the meantime, Drew let me run out by myself after Lilly's bedtime Wednesday night. I hit up Trader Joe's (for beaucoups of wine and nuts and random groceries) and Target (and got a tank top, bralette, and AnnaCate's easter basket!)... it's the little things that make you feel sane and energize you. I have an actual GIRLS' NIGHT scheduled for next Wednesday that I'm very much looking forward to, too.

Okay, both girls are now crying in their beds... off to say sayonara to my peaceful nap time quiet!

Monday, March 13, 2017

happy due date, annacate!

How far along: Would be 40 weeks, finally! Baby is now almost one month old -- she'll be a month on Wednesday!
Total weight gain: I am currently at +5 over pre-pregnancy weight. My max was +29lbs, and I delivered at +25lbs.
Baby Size: She weighed 9lbs 5oz at birth. She's currently over 10lbs now -- Lord help me, she would've been 13 or so if she'd gone full term!
Stretch marks: I managed to get away scot-free!
Clothes: Pretty much everything fits again! Except bras, obviously. 
Sleep: Now that I'm not miserably pregnant, I sleep like a normal person and don't need 20 hours a day! Hallelujah, energy is back!
Cravings: I still want all the ice and everything crunchy -- like nuts, chocolate chips and chunks, oats, all the texture. Craving sugar, carbs, trying to get back on a healthy kick. Eating a lot of pumpkin chocolate chip muffins, lactation cookies, and carrot cake lately.
Symptoms: I've survived the night sweats, mood swings (not nearly as bad this time!), intense sense of smell (not nearly as bad this time!), etc. Post-birth contractions to shrink my uterus sucked the first couple of days and I had one major clot pass, but relatively easy and painless recovery. Praise!!!
Diabetes Management: I am now on 2u with meals and 8u at night. Just have to keep it under 200 post-prandial and under 140 fasting.
Exercise: We've been on a few walks. I've been wanting to do squats and lunges to get my butt/legs in shape but have been refraining due to doctor's orders. I also want to get my abs to get back together (I have 1cm lower ab separation) but not sure how to do that... do I just wait until 6 weeks postpartum and see what it looks like then?
Mood: So happy, grateful, loving life!
Belly Button in or out? Back in for good, whew!
Nesting: Our nest has been nested. I'm still working on completing AnnaCate's bedroom -- finally got her crest printed and hung and her lamb organizers ordered this week, hoping to have things mostly finished by her Sip & See.
Nursery: Needs a few things -- crib skirt, canopy, newborn session photo prints framed and hung, etc.
Best Moment this week: Spending weekend with grandparents!
Thankful for: God, family, our precious daughters, Drew, friends.
Looking forward to: Extended family coming into town this weekend!
Doctor Visits: 7 weeks for me, 8 weeks for baby.
Baby Position:  In my arms!!!!!!
Movement: Pretty sleepy but currently nursing :)
Labor Signs: Baby in arms!!!!!!
How is Lilly: Adores her bebe!!!!! Best big sissy!!!!!!!!

Things Left to Do:
Buy diapers
Get our car back, return Mom's 4-Runner
Get car detailed
Install infant carseat
Stock up on pads & nursing pads
Make freezer meals (Drew)
Prepare taxes
Get postnatal massage
Make it through this week's wedding meetings
Wrap up clients' wedding details for the most part
Prepare to hand things over to VA for the month of March
Organize boxes of baby clothes
Clean off desk in office
Fully pack hospital bag
Officially book newborn photography
Get hair cut & colored (Feb. 7)

Sunday, February 26, 2017

five on friday

It's that time! Five on Friday!!

ONE:: momming two

Man, y'all! Mothering two under 2 is not for the faint of heart! We survived our first few days of just us Dellinger gals this week and no one has died / gotten brutally injured or emotionally scarred. Hallelujah! I made Drew pick me up some Sauvignon Blanc (sadly he couldn't find my favorites but he did bring home a good-enough bottle) last night so we cheersed to almost making it to Friday. And now it is Friday, Lilly Beth is in school until the afternoon, and for the first time ever, I don't have any appointments to make while she's away! Overall, our sweet toddler is taking the transition well -- she loves loves loves her "bebe" and asks about her frequently, and we've only had a few incidents involving roughhousing, which is lessened when I give her ample one-on-one snuggle time and keep her away from rooms involving couches or hard tables. (We watch a lot of Elmo from the high chair these days... let's be real.) She did sob her little heart out this morning at playschool dropoff (which almost made me break down too), but she's had three weeks off (from me being hospitalized / incapacitated from exhaustion / in labor) so it was high time to get back to school and try to regain normalcy and routine.

TWO:: routine

Drew and I have always been fly-by-the-seat-of-our-pants kinds of people, never really creatures of habit since we get bored and love spontaneity. Maybe it's partially that we're getting older, or maybe it's just that we have children now, but routine has never looked so necessary for our sanity and our babies'. We probably won't ever have a super rigid schedule that allows for no wiggle room (we legit have family that honor a weekly "Leftovers Night" and refuse to make plans that would ever interfere with it!), but having rituals that help Lilly know what's coming make things a lot more seamless, and give us a chance to feel somewhat in control in the midst of chaos.

THREE:: taxes & admin

WOOF! There are so many administrative tasks I desperately need to get done now that baby is born and time again exists to do so. Gulp! Taxes are a big one. I'm intimidated but must make progress!!! (Update:  I buckled down and got all the outstanding bills paid and short-term paperwork filled out / submitted. So much stuff!!! Just barely grazed the surface of taxes.)

FOUR:: ruffles and bell sleeves

I'm so tempted to give in to the current SUPER POPULAR trend of all the ruffled and bell sleeves but it has to be JUST RIGHT and not horribly expensive (because it's such a "trend" I can't imagine it'll stay en vogue for terribly long). Off-the-shoulder things are another trend I feel this way about -- last year I spent $12 on a black off-shoulder dress and it was perfect for a bachelorette party, vacation, and a couple date nights. It's still popular now so I'll probably get at least one more season out of it, and then it can potentially be retired. My issue with the bell sleeves thing is the only tops / dresses I like with them are all $60-100+. I'm definitely not spending near $400 on the Club Monaco sweater dress I adore, but I have a hard time justifying the $90 Endless Rose dress I want for Easter. Dilemmas!

FIVE:: sip & see

Now that my baby is born, it's high time for planning her sip & see party! I've always wanted to throw one of these, but didn't make much sense to do so for Lilly since we had showers in April immediately before she was born and a TON of visitors in the hospital / at home shortly after I had her. Anna Cate didn't have a shower and a lot of our close friends & family were sick so they didn't make it to the hospital to meet her, and with her being a winter baby I'd like to keep home visitors to a minimum to avoid sickness at all costs. So maybe a late March sip & see?! I have so many hopes and plans for this!!!! EEEK!

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

second-time mom wishlist

Maybe it's excitement over being able to wear "real people" clothes again, or wanting to invest in items that will help me feel more normal / pampered while I'm recovering and learning how to do this parenting two thing, or maybe just spring rolling around and a new season emerging... but I've got a running wishlist in place, and I'm apparently all about neutrals and white right now!

These sneaks for athleisure / looking fly / momming around {I actually bought these while I was trying to get my water to break last Tuesday! "Labor shoes" for AnnaCate!}

Socks that won't fall down when I wear said sneaks

A new fancy blow dryer

A white lululemon jacket (because I have a gift card burning a hole in my pocket)

A little white Lilly dress (because I have a gift card burning a hole in my pocket)

A white or ivory blouse or sweater with ruffles or bell sleeves -- they're all the rage right now and I'm smitten

What are you in the market for these days?

Monday, February 20, 2017

she's here!!!!

We are beyond thrilled that Julianna Cate Dellinger entered into the world last week!! So far it has been a delightfully smooth transition (with ample support from family!) and we couldn't be happier to have her sweet spirit with us. I'm madly in love with this precious baby and our family is complete.

Monday, February 13, 2017

bebe dos:: thirty-six weeks

How far along: 36 weeks! Close enough to full-term!

Total weight gain: +30ish. I had lost a pound last week so no idea where I'm truly at now.
Baby Size: 7lbs?
Stretch marks: None, thank God! Even my boobs have been spared.
Clothes: Stretchy shorts. Jersey dresses. Chinos. Maternity leggings & shirts. Piko tops. My black lace-top dress. 
Sleep: Never can get enough. We all napped for three hours yesterday.
Cravings: All the ice. Food is annoying. Zone Perfect bars in Cookie Dough flavor. Chocolate espresso trail mix.
Symptoms: Contractions, huge bump, uncomfortable all the time, kicked ribs, back pain, groin pain, major fatigue doing any and everything, everything itches. Insane bloody noses and so much snot.
Diabetes Management: It's getting better, so placenta must not be as crazy these days.
Exercise: Walks!!! Got taken off bedrest on Tuesday, so I'm back to normal activity.
Mood: So grumpy, irritable, hard to be around, impatient.
Miss Anything: Energy.
Belly Button in or out? I think we can go ahead and call it out now.
Nesting: Well.. we bought a new car! A total mom-mobile - Toyota Highlander Ltd with leather interior and third-row seating. Got our car back, packed them to the brim with hospital things. Keeping house pretty tidy, washing lots of windows and trimming bushes. Drew's doing his meal prep thing.
Nursery: Basically ready for baby. We still haven't done the whole cornice and canopy thing yet.
Best Moment this week: Uneventful medical appointments, making it another week without having a premature baby, relief from some of the steroid issues, help from Mom, buying a new car?
Thankful for: God, family, time with Lilly, Drew, finances, friends.
Looking forward to: Laken will have baby Lucy this week!  
Doctor Visits:  Tuesday & Friday.
Baby Position:  Head down lowwwww.
Movement: Consistent. 
Labor Signs: 4cm dilated, 60% effaced. Consistent contractions. Nothing else.
How is Lilly: Adorable, a little clingy. Been wanting to nurse lately (huh?). So sweet!

Overall -- spent a lot of this week thinking she was coming, but no dice. Went on date night with Drew on Thursday, test drove the Highlander, had dinner at Sopapilla's, thought for sure my water would break by the morning. But still every time I go to bed, contractions hold up and I wake up the next morning with no baby. Mom took Lilly on Thursday after I was having a struggle-bus time trying to work on things and having no energy whatsoever. Picked her back up Friday afternoon in time to buy our new car. Saturday night went really well with Drew's family -- had filets, made chocolate torte for Valentine's Day, played a game, everyone had good conversation and pitched in with Lilly. Sunday was lazy but good. Here we go, week 36! Laken's getting induced Wednesday if she still hasn't gone into labor yet. Who knew you could just chill at 4cm FOREVER?

Julianna Cate's Bumpdates
Sixteen Weeks
Eighteen Weeks
Nineteen WeeksTwenty Weeks

Twenty-Four Weeks
Twenty-Five Weeks
Twenty-Six Weeks
Twenty-Seven Weeks
Twenty-Eight Weeks
Twenty-Nine Weeks
Thirty Weeks
Thirty-One Weeks
Thirty-Two Weeks
Thirty-Three Weeks

Thirty-Four Weeks
Thirty-Five Weeks

Things Left to Do:
Buy diapers
Get our car back, return Mom's 4-Runner
Get car detailed
Install infant carseat
Stock up on pads & nursing pads
Make freezer meals (Drew)
Prepare taxes
Get final prenatal massage (Feb. 1 & Feb 18)
Make it through this week's wedding meetings
Wrap up clients' wedding details for the most part
Prepare to hand things over to VA for the month of March
Organize boxes of baby clothes
Clean off desk in office
Fully pack hospital bag
Monogram girls' pajamas
Officially book newborn photography
Get hair cut & colored (Feb. 7)
Go to one last prenatal yoga class